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Published: 2021-07-31
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hello everyone this is a valid men's I know I have been away for quite a while you haven't heard from me for two to three months no videos no articles and I know that has led to all sorts of speculations hypothesis %HESITATION claims all I just wanted to do this video as an update but also to let you know that I will not be working as
a journalist or analyst I won't be preparing any videos %HESITATION for at least nine months to a year and there's a question mark for that time period after that %HESITATION this is a really difficult video for me to record because I'm used to sitting here talking to you about geopolitics about politics about activism about important blacked out news but for this video hopefully it will be
%HESITATION it would make sense to all of you it I'm going to start with a personal part now some of you may know from my previous videos %HESITATION what I had mentioned in the past my husband we have been married for thirty years and he was diagnosed with ALS %HESITATION another name for this terminal disease is a type of venue rock but the is %HESITATION Lou
Gehrig's disease and there are different types of ALS some of them %HESITATION progress in a very slow over five ten years period before %HESITATION it is completely terminal and and there are other types that are %HESITATION more rapid progress the types of ALS my husband's ALS is the latter one and %HESITATION in the past year and a half to since diagnoses he has become disabled he
is on wheelchair and with this disease also basically your nerves %HESITATION that function off your nerves start dying in different parts of your body and that includes your vocal cords he has lost sixty seventy percent of his speech are the ability to swallow food %HESITATION he has made sure that everyone knows that he refuses to have and he will not have seating too and %HESITATION so
we have been managing with soft food because of the %HESITATION because of the difficulty or making it impossible to swallow food and %HESITATION with cold wet as you know I told my daughter she is she just turned thirteen adult falls school system and she is being home schooled it's a hybrid home schooling %HESITATION program meaning part of it is at home and part of it is
in this incredible place that does not have any indoctrination practices with excellent excellent educators real educators not indoctrinate ears and so she's been home most of the time with us %HESITATION during this difficult time my husband %HESITATION went under %HESITATION has been under hospice care since March of this year and %HESITATION he's at home by %HESITATION we have hospice nurses and physicians visiting our house several
times a week to help with %HESITATION with that with the caring so that basically sums up why I have been away and why I will be away for at least the next nine months to a year because that's the time period they have given us of for %HESITATION before my husband %HESITATION dice I those of you who've known me for a long time you know that
I don't sugar coat things no matter how difficult or hardcore sat the subject matter is I I try to tackle things %HESITATION on factual basis and address them as such %HESITATION the reason %HESITATION qualifying this sabbatical as %HESITATION maybe permanent maybe may be short term one year or so is because I don't know I really don't know and the reason it's important for me to share
this with you has to do with my subscribers our subscribers both with my news but %HESITATION our media organization to be set up several years ago %HESITATION based on cable and subscription but also for the %HESITATION more recent channel I've put together %HESITATION it's been about a year and a half under a patron and we have subscribers there as well and I know I should have
done this earlier and I apologize for being out of touch due to going through out a very difficult period it was something that I can't %HESITATION procrastinating now I was thinking of conveying all this via ad newsletter to my subscribers only to our subscribers are community members %HESITATION but it just didn't sit right it didn't feel right and %HESITATION I'm still gonna do that because I'm
sure many of fog our community members will not see this video either because they have to stop going to the website or %HESITATION because as you know YouTube has been blacking out my channel for the past three four years so I will be sending all our subscribers %HESITATION and use letter explaining this in the shorter format as well but I I I made the decision to
date that I needed to do this and I needed to do this today and be able to look you look at you look in the eyes through the camera lens and %HESITATION and also be able to talk about this because it's been %HESITATION very difficult to open up and talk about what it means how it feels etcetera etcetera for some people opening up to others or
seeking things like group therapy etcetera support groups help for some of us those things down and again I am I guess I fall into that category I have been a very private person all my life as a family we have been extremely extremely private and %HESITATION blacked with that said there are so many or few who have been my I don't know my support groups for
years to real difficult times and %HESITATION some of you I consider good friends some of you are closer to me than even some of my family members of so I guess all these reasons coming together %HESITATION gave me this I don't want to call it courage by determination to Sydney for the camera and connect with you in person I I have been known as a confident
person when it comes to work when it comes to politics talking about geopolitics providing analysis before that going into meetings through my organization national security whistleblowers coalition and whether it is to meet and work with various law firms and attorneys or walk the halls of Congress close things I'm not saying those things are easy piece of cake but I didn't have a really hard time doing
it itself and I have given the impression of being someone really confident however I am not becomes two issues personal matters and especially difficult personal times like this this is something I'm not used to do and I really appreciate you being understanding if I repeat myself or I stutter or %HESITATION if maybe some of my conversation here today sounds like babbling because as I said I
haven't done this before and I hope I won't ever have to do this again so why do I want to first tackled the issue the topic of subscribers is because I haven't been producing any videos any articles I haven't written anything any analysis for about three months and many of you live great subscribers community might act in this community irate minority members many off you'll have
remained as my subscribers I'm thankful but I don't think it's fair it's not fair and %HESITATION I'm giving you this notice this heads up so what the heck you with unsubscribe and though not to waste your money because there won't be any videos or articles come and I don't know what I'm going to be doing a year from now I haven't decided on that is the
decision that my daughter and I will make together and we are not at that point to make the decision so I'm asking you if you have %HESITATION if you have watched if you have listened to the podcast the videos there are thousands of them over appeared off %HESITATION thirteen fourteen years home to unsubscribe and %HESITATION maybe channels that money and your generous subscription %HESITATION contributions to
other venues %HESITATION who are active and they are engaged in real journalism analysis for activism we haven't we have never needed activism as much as being needs today and some of you may ask why don't you go and cancel it all automatically from your end and I want to explain that as well the reason I haven't canceled it number one is there so much material there
and the website is gonna remain where it is it's gonna be there without anything new coming being published %HESITATION however so many of you have told me through this in the past one or two years that there's there's so much archive material that you haven't even tapped into you haven't had the time houses and houses of hours of podcasts and videos not only mine but also
all other team members we have had all at news by professor Kovacevich of Peter leave hi in all so many videos so many videos and so many podcast programs before that that I had food used together with Peter B. Collins many of these are are timeless and what do I mean by that it most of the work we did most of the work I did throughout
this fourteen fifteen years with %HESITATION boiling frogs post which later became more into new spied their timeless macro issues whether you're talking about civil liberties whether we're talking about government whistleblowers whether we are talking about censorship coopted media geopolitics of Central Asia Caucasus they are not they haven't been based on Hey here it is here's the latest news or latest gossip or the latest scandal and