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Published: 2017-09-12
Source: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wmo7z0BnWys
in Miami I've always heard from many people that you can not teams your future your future is controlled by the almighty it's controlled by your god omits controlled by whatever you wanted thing you can not teams your future you cannot control it I think that's wrong I think that we have the capability to control the future and I want to give you an example through my
life and how my choices now my decision but those I have changed my future so the yield was still doesn't think August mid August two thousand six to be exact and a fun fact about me I am from the U. S. I was raised there of for seventeen years so I had just come back from a trip to India had come back to the U. S.
and I started getting home of a fever of a halo kind of the headache that was around my head and this wasn't an ordinary temple heavy it was much much worse there wasn't even a mighty and with that I started feeling cold in my my evil was running two hundred and three hundred people and that was not normal I went to my doctor and my doctor
told me that it's probably just a season to be voted on by the kind of thing you should take something like a policy tomorrow all across and I go you'll be fine I took that and it didn't hurt I the people was the best and up to the minute medicine world if you wish jump right back so then because of that we went to the emergency
room in the U. S. and they did all of the tests the necessary tests possible every test was negative the doctors even of a spinal tap and that was all negative after that I went to you know my mom even actually told them that I probably have malaria it was during the monsoon season in India they said that the symptoms are similar but we cannot give
all any medication because it did not show up in the report and it unlawful we went home and I took close in again and after that I started hallucinating so I was talking nonsense I didn't know what I was the and I was telling my my mom and dad to just be away from me because I didn't recognize them and after I I went back to
sleep at night I woke up and everything was totally fine when I woke up I went to the rest the restrooms and I was not able to walk properly I couldn't even go to the so my mom and dad took me to the emergency room and they inserted a tube into my bladder and they believed me they thought of me to work because the tent where
they did all of the necessary tests possible that did it MRI and supposedly they saw something at the back of my neck eye shadow or something and %HESITATION they took me in one of the spinal tap and after that spinal tap I Wendy too gothic arrest I went to respiratory arrest I had is the usual that lasted thirty seconds and I was declared dead I was
laying on the testing people dad went my on without not I was unconscious I couldn't read I was dead and the doctors of page to cool blue which is a severe emergency and everyone is running around and my mom my nose comes to my mall and he says if you want to see your doctor for the last time Mrs moody you better come with me my
mom and my my mom and dad they run like an evening and they saw me and all of these doctors were surrounding the they were giving me electric shocks with the D. for Bellator and they said that we will not be able to see if your doctor your doctor is a gone keys and my body was laying there for the past seven minutes without oxygen without
a pause without any consciousness and October third try and and I see you duck picky and he took because I like to buy those and after the third try he got my heart back minute but but he got my heart by I was transferred to the ICU and I was put on a ventilator and that evening I given to my senses and I was totally fine
I could recognize everybody the next day they took me for another spinal tap and I went into a coma so I was in a coma for a twenty three day period during which I was declared dead place so the first time what happened is my body temperature went below ninety degrees Fahrenheit and they have no idea they don't know what happened they put heated blankets on
me he did not surrounding my bed and my body temperatures Dulu wooden tries and up to forty minutes they took everything all and like America's everything dysregulated on its own the second time my hemoglobin went below by no the nola is thirty or forty it went below by so I was again declared critical because they thought that I would get hypothermia and they gave me three
units of blood after forty minutes they checked my blood count and my hemoglobin still wasn't so it was still below by after an hour alone just miraculously it regulated on its own now on the twenty first of September the doctors wanted to take me off my ventilator because there were no improvements there was nothing there was no light in me according to them so my mom
pursue sitting right there my mom she literally went down on her beat she grabbed his feet and she cried now this woman is the strongest woman I know and she cried bad days you didn't cry during the whole time I was in the coma you didn't cry when I went into respiratory arrest but that day she cried and she said that no my daughter's birthday is
on the twenty ninth of September I want you to keep her on the ventilator and alive until Ben and of that day nothing happens I will personally signed the consent form right now giving you permission to take her off of the ventilator they spoke to the dean of medicine and the dean of medicine that okay a fellow vicious so on the twenty ninth of September I
had seventy people all my family members my of family friends they were in the ICU room and they had decorated everything in there was a key can everything that at three OO five PM there was a time when I was born they started singing Happy Birthday my dad took my hand and as soon as he got the key I open my eyes and I was staring
at the ceiling and everybody was screaming and the doctors Rushton they did a brief checkup and they said they hugged my mall and they said Mrs Morty block this is because of you your daughter is alive today because of you you saved us from committing a sin hearts all do you yeah I went back into a coma after I would see the ten minutes I went
back into Oklahoma so they were scared again they thought that and what's going to happen to me but the doctor guarantee he assured them that everything would be totally by on the fifth of October th they took me into the OR and they took the ventilator out of my mouth and they put it into my throat I have this guy you know if you can see
and I came out of my coma after the anesthesia world I totally came out of Michael Moore know they was scared that I might I might be mentally and I might %HESITATION hop amnesia or I might be brain dead and nothing happened at all and I was totally fine except but I was paralyzed from the neck down no I did not realize that at that time
that I was paralyzed from the neck down if you've heard of phantom limb when the soldier loses a body part he can still feel that that body part is dead or he can still feel that he can move his fingers or one of his limbs I felt bad I felt that I was able to raise my hand I was able to move my fingers but in
reality I couldn't and nobody told me this our exit my grandmother she told me up in a couple of days that I am paralyzed at that point in time when she told me I became silent I didn't talk to anybody I guess because I was processing this information and I realized at that point in time is that it doesn't matter if my body is not able
to move if I believe that I am able to move it my body will adopt puts it my body will react to it and I did physiotherapy I did everything that thought never left my mind even though I still wasn't able to move as much now one thing that really changed my mind set is an exercise that my mother did so I was sitting I wasn't
able to sit properly either like it's a paralyzed from the neck down so I was like a new born baby I wasn't able to sit so what happened is my mom she stuck me up against the sofa in our house at that time and I told her that I'm hungry I would like to eat something so %HESITATION she I don't know what she was thinking but
she got a couple of boards and she put my favorite crackers into those bullets and she laid it across out of across for me so I was sitting on the floor against the sofa and as you can imagine these boys I hear hill hill and he'll and I just look at the and I must go Longmire these Boothia just give me something to eat I'm hungry
can you beat me she sits behind me and she says if you're hungry go get it yourself I'm not you'll meet I'm your mother I also get tired taking care of you and she was extremely rude at that time and she was really mean to me but she said but would you also you want your body you can move you can do everything you do it
and you feed yourself and I looked at her with tears in my eyes I said okay fine if you want me to do this if you if you believe in me that I need to believe in myself and I need to go and do this you won't believe it took me forty minutes just to crawl and put down to the ground to pull my soap towards
the boys and after those forty minutes I picked up one cracker but my fingers and I picked it up like this like this I couldn't pick up anything with these fingers go like this I picked it up and I put that cracker in my mom and that status faction that satisfaction of doing something by myself despite not highly enough movement dot was a life changing moment
for me that moment I realized that my mind set if I can believe that I can do this but I can do anything I can do anything that I want to do and that that point in time when I realize that picking something as simple as a crackle and putting it in my mouth if not I can give me satisfaction I just imagine what and what
it's like you do in my life to give me satisfaction to make me feel independent rather than deepened I'm not thought process that stuck to me that brought but thought process talked to me and I realize that I need to move forward that my decisions the way that I think positively dot will affect my future diaper bitter change everything for me now I realize that a
lot of my friends personally they are very negative in their minds that they think that they cannot do this or or they cannot do that so you you saw a picture of me %HESITATION going scuba diving so I've always wanted to do that and I I thought that how will I go scuba diving I I can't move my legs how would I swim and essentially scuba
diving is like drowning essentially so how will I do that but then I owe I would I I saw this festival of this mumbling under what of this debate and they told me that those with disabilities can go scuba diving so I said okay the you know what I'm gonna do this doesn't matter if I have a disability if I believe in my mind that I'm
deceiver than I will not be able to do anything in my mind I'm not deceived so that's another reason why I am against these words they've young the clone differently abled specially abled are specially challenged I am against those words the reason being is it's it's kind of like a satisfaction it's it's a euphemism to try to make you feel better about yourself I'm different the
event Holly my differently abled I am able to do everything that you're able to do today the only difference this is you can take the steps I take a ramp I mean this is my life line right now your legs are your life line so we are both dependent on our life lines so how is that any different from you and another were another thing is
people assume that being disabled is abnormal so please tell me one thing what is normal can someone give me an answer to that is anything normal so according a I'm a vegetarian so it's just a brief exam but I'm a vegetarian eating meat it's abnormal to me but it might be normal to have it a non vegetarian so normalcy is actually subjective who are we to
judge what is normal and what is abnormal so these this mind that it needs to be out of our mind we need to we need to change this and once we change these mentalities and there's this minor third of us that is the only way that we were progress towards the future otherwise we will be stuck where we are thank you %HESITATION
